But I have this against you, that you have abandoned the love you had at first. (Revelation 2:4 ESV)
Many times in my travels, I look at the passenger seat in my car... It is filled usually with my ipad, music, and a Bible, and whatever odds and ends I happen to put there...like food. I have lost count at how many times I have wished for company, for someone.. Anyone I love to be in that seat. Because I get lonely in my car, for extended hours of travel. Why I travel so much, only God knows what is happening. He has taken me on a journey I never would have planned, expected, or really wanted. But here i am, in one piece, and still have joy.
The emptiness I feel sometimes, I guess if you pull that out of my longing for a partner, and put it to... Not knowing Christ... It fits. Cause honestly what is the thing that so many people try to fill with drugs, sex, alcohol... The sense of being alone, no one cares, anger... Whatever it is they...we... Are searching for better.... For non believers its the God that made them and wants them. For us believers.. Its our first love! I know for myself so many times in a day i abandon my first love. In choices i make, in conversations I have. Everything!
Then we wonder why we feel miserable? It is because we are or have lost touch with our Creator. The Bible talks about how when you seperate yourself from Him and dont honor Him. You begin to go back to your old ways, the ways of the flesh. The lust of the eyes, the pride of...yourself.
We are a sinful race, only saved by grace. It is by grace you have been saved!
Let us remember our purpose here! Remember your creator in the days of your youth!
May the love of God indwell you today!
Proclaim Him wherever you go!
Do not be ashamed!
October 31, 2011
October 30, 2011
Freedom to sing, and to dance!
For freedom Christ has set us free; stand firm therefore, and do not submit again to a yoke of slavery. (Galatians 5:1 ESV)
When I read this verse the other day I wrote a whole blog post on it... Then i lost the whole post and was really upset :)
So here we go again!
The thing that really gets me about this is the fact that, if I am in Christ, or atleast proclaim to be i. him. Should I not be free, and longing to do the things of Him eho made me? Should we not all long to share Christ with whoever we come in contact with? And if so why are we not doing the thing we were called to do? In Joshua the Lord to Joshua to be of good courage! To have the strength to do what God has called of Him to do, and he did it. He did more than just the one task of Jericho, but he led the nation of Israel onto victory many times. When he died he said "as for me and my house we will serve the Lord." wow! That is what I want whether i am single my whole life, or ai have a family, I want to say that i followed to the to the end of my days. That even through the hard times, i gave it my all!
May I have the boldness to stand for what I profess to believe, and give God the time and the glory He so honestly deserves in my life, may we all do so!
The empathy and stagnant, unforgiving, unwholesome, deceptive, distracted, unappealing church needs to end. We need to wake up!! Wake up and see that there is more than music to fight over! There are eternal souls at stake here, lives that are daily being lost to the depths of hell...
What are we as truth givers going to do about it? Sit on the side and allow people to go about their lives, knowing that they are going to live in eternal torment!? Are we going to disregard Christs last commandment!? Justify it by saying someone else will? NO. By saying we believe in Him, then we are to do His commandments. No ifs ands or buts.
Just a thought...
When I read this verse the other day I wrote a whole blog post on it... Then i lost the whole post and was really upset :)
So here we go again!
The thing that really gets me about this is the fact that, if I am in Christ, or atleast proclaim to be i. him. Should I not be free, and longing to do the things of Him eho made me? Should we not all long to share Christ with whoever we come in contact with? And if so why are we not doing the thing we were called to do? In Joshua the Lord to Joshua to be of good courage! To have the strength to do what God has called of Him to do, and he did it. He did more than just the one task of Jericho, but he led the nation of Israel onto victory many times. When he died he said "as for me and my house we will serve the Lord." wow! That is what I want whether i am single my whole life, or ai have a family, I want to say that i followed to the to the end of my days. That even through the hard times, i gave it my all!
May I have the boldness to stand for what I profess to believe, and give God the time and the glory He so honestly deserves in my life, may we all do so!
The empathy and stagnant, unforgiving, unwholesome, deceptive, distracted, unappealing church needs to end. We need to wake up!! Wake up and see that there is more than music to fight over! There are eternal souls at stake here, lives that are daily being lost to the depths of hell...
What are we as truth givers going to do about it? Sit on the side and allow people to go about their lives, knowing that they are going to live in eternal torment!? Are we going to disregard Christs last commandment!? Justify it by saying someone else will? NO. By saying we believe in Him, then we are to do His commandments. No ifs ands or buts.
Just a thought...
October 26, 2011
The inserts of a small boy.
Only let each person lead the life that the Lord has assigned to him, and to which God has called him. This is my rule in all the churches. (1 Corinthians 7:17 ESV)
Be watchful, stand firm in the faith, act like men, be strong. (1 Corinthians 16:13 ESV)
The life that the Lord has called... Many times in a week, and even a day do I wonder what that is. The context of that verse is about marriage, which is one of the many questions I have about my life. Will I get married, am I ready? There is so much that goes just into that portion of life. I want to get married but i do not know if I am ready for that commitment, right now i am having a hard time just settling in one spot.
Then there is a job, what do I do with my life? I want to go back to school for music and ministry, but is that my calling? And how do I know what is Gods calling and what is just me making up my mind on my own?
I am called to do as He has given me, to BE strong, and to ACT as a MAN. There are many times i am NOT a man, giving into my selfish wants and desires. The bible talks so much about giving into the lust of the flesh... And how its so wrong, yet i persist on doing what i know I should not. Who will save me from this body of death...?
Like I said so many questions.. So many things I need to work on, and here i am in the middle of all these people... Feeling as lost as they truly are. I fret over little things, when i am surrounded by people who are eternally condemned... That is my calling... Isnt it? To reach the lost? But what about my own walk, can I focus to much on others?
This is what has been going on in my head... Mainly cause i have been struggling lately.
Give it to Jesus, its all about Jesus... I need to engrain that in my head. Preach the gospel to myself daily. He changes everything.
"and how can I stand here with YOU, and NOT be moved by YOU!?"
Be watchful, stand firm in the faith, act like men, be strong. (1 Corinthians 16:13 ESV)
The life that the Lord has called... Many times in a week, and even a day do I wonder what that is. The context of that verse is about marriage, which is one of the many questions I have about my life. Will I get married, am I ready? There is so much that goes just into that portion of life. I want to get married but i do not know if I am ready for that commitment, right now i am having a hard time just settling in one spot.
Then there is a job, what do I do with my life? I want to go back to school for music and ministry, but is that my calling? And how do I know what is Gods calling and what is just me making up my mind on my own?
I am called to do as He has given me, to BE strong, and to ACT as a MAN. There are many times i am NOT a man, giving into my selfish wants and desires. The bible talks so much about giving into the lust of the flesh... And how its so wrong, yet i persist on doing what i know I should not. Who will save me from this body of death...?
Like I said so many questions.. So many things I need to work on, and here i am in the middle of all these people... Feeling as lost as they truly are. I fret over little things, when i am surrounded by people who are eternally condemned... That is my calling... Isnt it? To reach the lost? But what about my own walk, can I focus to much on others?
This is what has been going on in my head... Mainly cause i have been struggling lately.
Give it to Jesus, its all about Jesus... I need to engrain that in my head. Preach the gospel to myself daily. He changes everything.
"and how can I stand here with YOU, and NOT be moved by YOU!?"
October 24, 2011
Catch your breathe
For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing with the glory that is to be revealed to us. (Romans 8:18 ESV)
I love the fact that this is as close to hell as I am going to get. I love that i am going to see Him face to face, and that He will accept me. I am unworthy and deservant of death, but He has given Himself for me, so that I can have an eternal home... Way more than i could ask for.
I feel like such a failure since school... Im so glad that He doesn't count it all against me... I would be so lost... I feel lost many days anyways...
God give me strength, and help me to come to you daily... I fail so much at giving you the time you deserve. I am weak, and broken... Give me the wisdom to proceed, and the attentiveness to hear your soft, small voice... Make it a loud yell in my ear. Help me my God!
I love the fact that this is as close to hell as I am going to get. I love that i am going to see Him face to face, and that He will accept me. I am unworthy and deservant of death, but He has given Himself for me, so that I can have an eternal home... Way more than i could ask for.
I feel like such a failure since school... Im so glad that He doesn't count it all against me... I would be so lost... I feel lost many days anyways...
God give me strength, and help me to come to you daily... I fail so much at giving you the time you deserve. I am weak, and broken... Give me the wisdom to proceed, and the attentiveness to hear your soft, small voice... Make it a loud yell in my ear. Help me my God!
October 22, 2011
Betsy, and the travels of my car and I...
Colossians 3:15-16
"And let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, to which indeed you were called in one body. And be thankful. Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly, teaching and admonishing one another in all wisdom, singing psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, with thankfulness in your hearts to God." ESV
In the past 5 months I have lived in Montana, Idaho, and Wisconsin... I have started the process of a youth center in Idaho and am currently on hold with the idea of raising support until I know it is Gods timing. In Wisconsin I lived with my family for a time and just worked in the family business. But I knew that I could not stay there and I needed to get out... So I moved to Glendive, which at the moment is where I am typing this. So right after I left school I also moved to Bozeman for afew weeks, but that is beside the point. :)
When i got to idaho I did not have a car, God provided so much at this point! Little did I know I was going to get a $600 dollar priced car, for only $300! I left not to long after that from there, and I headed home... No air-conditioning, no radio, and a car loaded to the brim with my things! I fixed the few things up that needed done on the car while home, and then came here to Glendive with it, following Scott.
Now that I have been in Glendive for three months, I have become Assistant Manager at "The Coffee Den" and have been for the past month. As much as I love my job, it is looking as if it is time to move on, and do things to forward my career. I want to go back to school, and I honestly can't believe I am saying that but it is true. I want to get a degree in music and in ministry. But to do so I need to be earning more, and able to save up money and not have it dissapear right away. So I look to move to Big Sky and work, doing shoveling, thankfully the pay is 11-14 an hour. :)
When i got to idaho I did not have a car, God provided so much at this point! Little did I know I was going to get a $600 dollar priced car, for only $300! I left not to long after that from there, and I headed home... No air-conditioning, no radio, and a car loaded to the brim with my things! I fixed the few things up that needed done on the car while home, and then came here to Glendive with it, following Scott.
Now that I have been in Glendive for three months, I have become Assistant Manager at "The Coffee Den" and have been for the past month. As much as I love my job, it is looking as if it is time to move on, and do things to forward my career. I want to go back to school, and I honestly can't believe I am saying that but it is true. I want to get a degree in music and in ministry. But to do so I need to be earning more, and able to save up money and not have it dissapear right away. So I look to move to Big Sky and work, doing shoveling, thankfully the pay is 11-14 an hour. :)
So yea, this is what has been happening in my life!
October 21, 2011
Blessed...
"there is a kingdom coming..." -Marshal Mclean
There is a kingdom coming and what have i done to prepare for it? I honestly can't say to much. I can think of all the sins i have done lately, and how everyones heaven is becoming my hell. I have a sick feeling in my gutt that when the day comes, i will not be ready. I wont hear the words "well done"... But that it will just be i made it...
God forbid this happen, its tearing me apart, that i will only see God for real if i am pure in heart... I know that on my own my hands..what i do is all empty, but with Him they are filled. I need Him to do things, God answer me! Attend to my suffering, hear my silent cries, my inner longings.. Destroy my flesh...
There is war in my peace, things that im holding that ive got to release... I have to. Blessed.... The word is "Blessed".
Few can feel the coming kingdom... But i can, and i pray that i am ready.
There is a kingdom coming and what have i done to prepare for it? I honestly can't say to much. I can think of all the sins i have done lately, and how everyones heaven is becoming my hell. I have a sick feeling in my gutt that when the day comes, i will not be ready. I wont hear the words "well done"... But that it will just be i made it...
God forbid this happen, its tearing me apart, that i will only see God for real if i am pure in heart... I know that on my own my hands..what i do is all empty, but with Him they are filled. I need Him to do things, God answer me! Attend to my suffering, hear my silent cries, my inner longings.. Destroy my flesh...
There is war in my peace, things that im holding that ive got to release... I have to. Blessed.... The word is "Blessed".
Few can feel the coming kingdom... But i can, and i pray that i am ready.
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