In depth

In the past few days I have met with afew people about my future... Where I want to be, where they could see me, and how to get there.
I am starting to attend a Bible study with college aged students, and do one with another guy in the area. So Excited for both of them! I start my job at trigs on Monday, so that is sneaking up on me...

I want to take the position at HCY but... I also want to move out with Spilch and do something... could we do it here??? I wonder if he would want to do it here... Or should I move? I really am lost in all my choices.
I was listening to David Crowder again today, and his lyrics really hit me... God is so in control of everything! But I dont feel it... the song asks if you feel it, and I thought about it and the more I thought about it, the more I realized that I honestly do not. So something is wrong. What is it... It is my focus... my love is not for Christ, its for all my earthly possesions and my earthly desires. The Bible clearly states that it should not be that way!!!

I want to make a difference for Christ, I want to believe more! I have to do SOMETHING!!!
A lot of questions... not many answers... I need answers...

The kind of thing you avoid...

I have been having to deal with a lot of things that for years, i have avoided...
God is putting me in positions to have to change, to have to face conflict. I hate conflict... I just pray i come out in one piece. So far i am failing at this. But God has truly blessed me besides. I have two jobs, and am gaining some very valuable friendships! I am involved in music at church, and my siblings are growing in Christ! Such a blessing to be able to see them right now, and to be there for them! I wish i could do more. May God calm me, and iknow He will complete what he started!

The simple things...

So often I pass over simple things... Like catching a musky, or having a job. I take them for grantit! Oh the things God has given me, i am so blessed! I should not expect everything, but be glad with what I have, where I am, and where I will be! Matthew 6 needs to be something I keep in mind. I will continue to be thankful, no matter what the circumstance. The Lords mercies are new every morning! GREAT IS THY FAITHFULNESS!

Passiveness...my undoing?

How I have treated my faith lately, has really gotten to me. I have become very passive in my thinking and actions... While at home i am going to work on this... Latelt the thought of going out of my home life has been on my mind. What keeps me from going into the streets? Do i go to school? Idk... I know something is wrong though, i am not satisfied with the normal life.. I want more.

The time in between

I am back in Wisconsin, and am not sure what to think about it. The Lord took me for a journey out to Idaho, showed me things, and taught me things. But i will not be there to see it happen... Where now God? Where now..?