In depth

In the past few days I have met with afew people about my future... Where I want to be, where they could see me, and how to get there.
I am starting to attend a Bible study with college aged students, and do one with another guy in the area. So Excited for both of them! I start my job at trigs on Monday, so that is sneaking up on me...

I want to take the position at HCY but... I also want to move out with Spilch and do something... could we do it here??? I wonder if he would want to do it here... Or should I move? I really am lost in all my choices.
I was listening to David Crowder again today, and his lyrics really hit me... God is so in control of everything! But I dont feel it... the song asks if you feel it, and I thought about it and the more I thought about it, the more I realized that I honestly do not. So something is wrong. What is it... It is my focus... my love is not for Christ, its for all my earthly possesions and my earthly desires. The Bible clearly states that it should not be that way!!!

I want to make a difference for Christ, I want to believe more! I have to do SOMETHING!!!
A lot of questions... not many answers... I need answers...