The words I speak...

for by your words you will be justified, and by your words you will be condemned."
(Matthew 12:37 ESV)

Tonight at "Crosslife" the message was given about words... The Bible plinly states that we will give an account not just for our actions, but for our words. This really hit me tonight! How many pointless things, hurtful, or mean things do I say each day!?

What will I be remembered for? My goofiness? My pride? Or how I spoke of Jesus!? Because with how I have been living lately, I honestly question my relationship with Jesus.

I dont know, the message just got me in a spot I can't really explain. But all I know is I am far from being a "Man of God". I am so weak in my Spirituallity, and my flesh is so bad.
I can sympathize with Paul when he said "Wretched man that I am, who shall save me from this body of death." Thanks be to GOD!
I want to believe, I want to be strong enough to be led by God. Right now I feel like that small soft voice I should hear... Is not there.

I need Jesus, but I am struggling finding Him in all my stuff....

Who am I? A sinner saved by grace. Again I point to Galatians 2:20 and the verse I have as my blog header. (Ephesians)

April is coming to quick...