The problem with America, and all of us there within...

Psalm 66:5 "Come and see what God has done: He is awesome in His deeds toward the children of man."

So I get an apartment come the 16th and dont get me wrong I am so excited for this, and the fact that I can allow people over to my place! Give them a place to relax, chat, do homework... Whatever it is. But the more I get to prepare for this, the more I wonder what it is I need, and what I want... Many people dont have a roof over their head... Just today I passed a man on the street who looked so cold, and worn down. He held a sign that said "anything helps". He wasnt asking for money, or anything, maybe he just needs a sweatshirt. But I didnt stop, or even give it a thought, till just now. Last night I went to a friends house, and all that happened was a lot of weed and smoking. Which from non believers is normal, but did I mention anything, or say it isnt right? I can do that in love right?
So are both of these situations in the past 24 hours just normal life things... Or opportunities from God to show or proclaim His love. Most would say no, but the more I think on it.. Dont we live and breathe to proclaim Him? Isnt that our whole purpose as a believer? Or do we just keep God in our heads. He is okay to speak of where it is safe for us, but otherwise... Is it reaallly necessary?
So when it comes down to it, even though I say I love God, I am ashamed of the truth I hold, because it makes me uncomfortable, or loses friends. Im a selfish hypocrite, who thinks that the only thing that matters is my comfort.
I read Romans 8, about life in the spirit... And that it includes suffering for Him, the taking up of our crosses... Because nothing is to compare in this world with the surpassing glory that is to be revealed to us!
Galatians 2:20 became my life verse when I went to MWSB, it states:
"I have been crucified with Christ. It is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me. And the life I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave Himself for me."
I wish that verse rang true in my life.. But i know the my heart, and I know that this is not what I am like. I have been crucified with Christ... My judgment has been taken, but as for the living by faith, because of that? I am not sure that I know what that truly means. I mean, I will say I do, because believers are supposed to right? But how many "believers" just put on the "i have faith" face, when in all reality... We dont even know what it looks like. We dont look any different than the other guy who lives His life in sin.
The fact is, we are sinners saved by grace... But that does not mean we continue sinning! I pray that God breaks our hearts for what breaks His, and that we begin to live unashamed. Not just saying we have faith, not just hanging out with friends, but truly going after the matter of the heart. Truly focusing on eternity, and that all here is loss for the sake of Christ, and our neighbors and friends need Jesus! Cause tomorrow may be to late.